Last week was quite an emotional week and this week is still no different. Our hearts are broken and trying to find a solution to this ongoing problem. Our world is trying to heal after the attack in Orlando and time will heal the wounds; but for now we are uniting as a people to get through this tragic event.
My heart was already heavy hearing of Christina Grimmie losing her life so tragically, so sudden. Then to wake two days later to the news of what happened in Orlando was almost too much to take. It really shook me to my core because not only were these victims so young, but a lot of them are my fellow Puerto Rican people. A day after they announced their names, I found out my cousins were close to two of the victims. I couldn't stop crying knowing that my cousins were hurting and I can't even hug them since they live far away.
All I can do is let them know that I'm here, I'm praying for them and for all the families and friends who lost 49 beautiful souls. I don't even understand why hate has to come into this world because nine times out of ten, love conquers all. Love always wins. We get it that we need more love, we need more tolerance, more empathy and understanding of others' differences. Even though tragedy shouldn't be the reason to start opening our eyes that we need to love more, sometimes it's a wake up call. I hope that this time, the solution will come soon. For now, I think we just need to love everyone because life is too short not to.
Love not only others, but ourselves as well. This person that did this heinous hate crime was having an inner battle with himself and hated that part of himself, which also extended to him hating gay people. I read somewhere that he resented Puerto Ricans because of being rejected and used. I know rejection is hard for anyone to take, but it's about how you accept it and move on. Supposedly he wanted to find love and resented them because he was involved with one of them who later told him they had HIV. So a source close to him came forward saying this was most likely payback for what they did to him.
This person was a ticking time bomb for a few years now. It was only a matter of time and circumstances that sadly led him to this. First it was his outrage when two gay men kissed in public, then it was the rejection he experienced and then the HIV possibility he might be infected.
There's a scripture in the Bible that says, "For everyone who does evil hates the Light, and does not come to the Light for fear that his deeds will be exposed." (John 3:20) When I think of what must've been going on with this guy is exactly what this says - He hated gay people because they were free to be who they are and free to love who they love, all the while he's in the closet (in darkness) and resents them for being proud and living their life as they see fit. He was living a double life and probably grew up hating being gay and/or not wanting to accept his truth.
If his wife really knew that he was about to go off then I hope they charge her and put her in prison. How do you not come forward? That's totally a rhetorical question because it doesn't make sense to me.
I wish I had an answer to resolve this issue from happening again in the future. All we can do is donate, be supportive, be understanding, teach our next generation tolerance and most of all love 'til no tomorrow. Love is love and love conquers all. God bless ❤︎