First off, Happy Thanksgiving! I love this time of year because we get a chance to reflect on what we’re thankful for and this couldn’t be a better time to give thanks.
I made it to Dallas last night with my pup Monroe after work. I’ve never had to go home for the holidays but I figured leaving the day before will be smoother than leaving the day of Thanksgiving. Success! Sleeping in was heaven sent and having my mom brew me a Starbucks coffee was great. Before I join my family on Thanksgiving shenanigans, I wanted to blog on the many things I’m thankful for.
This man right here, Roman, saved me. If it weren’t for him, I wouldn’t have made the brave move to leave everything behind and move to Austin. Sometimes we can do things on our own, but when you have someone there to help you along, it makes it a little less stressful. I’m thankful for our friendship and that I have my go to person to hang out with if we just want to watch a movie at his place and get some beers and pizza on East 6th. This pic was taken last Sunday, the day after I ended things with Ryan. It took everything in me to do my hair and put my makeup on, but once I did I felt better.
I’m thankful for my family, mainly my mom. She really helped me out this past month when my car got repossessed. It actually got taken on my birthday week and I know I have been barely blogging, but I was embarrassed. Especially since this is not my first repo, but then again I realized I needed something that was way cheaper so that I’m not in this situation again. She got me a car that I’ve always wanted to have if it were a Civic. A Civic Si with all the bells and whistles. It’s burnt orange and I called it Pumpkin (#Cinderbella). What a great color to have living in Austin (Hook ’em Horns!)
It’s a stick shift. I haven’t driven a stick in 3 years so it took me a little bit to get used to it. Here she is! Leather interior, it still looks new even though it’s a 2009.
I’m thankful I found my own place. I have to move close to Christmas and I’ve been looking for a few days now and I finally found something. It’s still in the works since I have to still look at it when I get back from Dallas, but I’m starting to feel good that everything is falling into place. This new place is still close to work and the best part is, no roommates! Send me good vibes that everything works out.
I’m thankful for my breakup. Part of me had doubts that I was doing the right thing dating an addict because I had never done anything like that before. My family and friends were all worried and advised against it. I carefully considered what they were saying but I assured them that this love was worth it. Things happened that I didn’t deserve and God gave me a way out and I took it. To be honest, I’m so relieved. This relationship took a toll on me, even on my own blog. I felt restricted, as if I couldn’t share the things from my heart because people (his family) were keeping an eye and giving their unwanted two cents. It brought so much stress to our relationship and I felt so angry.
I’m usually a happy person so when I’m angry, I don’t like it. It brings out a side of me that I don’t like because I can be ruthless when I’m on a mission. I’m just thankful that when the truth came out, he wasn’t face to face because things would have been a lot worse for him. God doesn’t give you more than you can handle and God knows I wouldn’t have been able to handle it if we were in person. Which brings me to my next thankful point.
I’m thankful my job didn’t hire him back. It seems God was getting everything ready before it all came to a head. Now I see why his counselor and his family were against him being in a relationship. He needs to focus on his sobriety, his issues and a relationship is a distraction, maybe even a crutch. It was unfortunate that they were ganging up on me and criticizing the things I would share on my blog, that was a little much. It feels good to know now that I can do whatever I want.
I can drink alcohol again. I hadn’t shared this on my blog yet but I was going to give up alcohol, to be supportive of him. I also felt guilty when I would drink because I knew that that’s something he struggles with. Even though I would never drink in front of him or with him, when I would go out with Roman, that’s when I would feel the guilt. Trust me though, first thing I did on Sunday was go to brunch, had a mimosa then went to buy a nice bottle of red wine and drank it the next few days.
I’m thankful for my job. My job is amazing, so many great people I work with, the benefits, the fun activities we do to keep work fun, it’s seriously the best company I’ve ever worked for. It’s very challenging too but I know I’m here for a reason and I need to stick to it because the best is yet to come.
I’m happy to be back in Dallas, see my family and old friends the next 4 days and then back to ATX, my other home.
What are you thankful for loves?