Today makes a week since that horrid day happened and I was all over the place. It’s safe to say that now that a few days have gone by I have come to a zen and peaceful state. Amazing what time can do right? What I want to share with y’all today is just how patience really is a virtue and do your absolute best to not freak out like I did, no matter what is going on around you.
By the end of that day, I had some amazing news that really made my heart overflow with gratitude. I’ll just flat out say it because sometimes we just need to be real in blogland. I was struggling coming up with my rent. It’s not easy for me to admit that, but seriously who has not struggled with this before? I’m sure a few of you can definitely relate and you can raise your hand right now as you read this, no one is judging, least of all me.
If you happen to be one of the fortunate ones who has never struggled with this, then pat yourself on the back, you lucky son of a… Anywho, just joking here! Back to the amazing news I received that day, my rent was paid. The past two weeks I had been stressed out thinking I owed late fees and the whole nine, but when I spoke with my apartment people, they told me my account is good. Not gonna bore you with the details, but in a nutshell I have a roof over my head and everything is set.
Right at that moment I knew everything would work out. No need to be in freak out mode, being emotional and what not because eventually things always fall into place. Isn’t that a great feeling to know that?
I was not only freaking out that day, but I was scared out of my mind. I was afraid that I will never find what I’ve been looking for since I started looking at other options last summer. Because I hadn’t found what I was looking for, I checked out. I decided I was not going to look for another job because I hated the feeling of being let go when things didn’t pan out. It just all seemed like a vicious cycle and I couldn’t bear the thought of experiencing this all over again a few months down the road.
Then I realized that I should probably tweak a few things by searching for the next step up and not make a lateral move. I know I said I was going to focus on my blog and my Mary Kay, but to be perfectly honest those passions of mine are not ready to bloom just yet. In the meantime, I need consistent income to keep those passions going and eventually after being patient, things will start taking off.
Crazy to think that that same day, a friend of mine referred me to a recruiter who has an opportunity that is a step up in inside sales. I had a phone interview this week and another one coming up. It’s like they say, when one door closes, another one opens.
I learned that in order to move forward, you need to take a step back and look at the big picture, not give into your emotions by acting on them and make a change where you’re not repeatedly doing what has already failed. So I’m not quite free, but I know that in due time as I grow and learn, that one day I will truly do what I love for a living and I am so excited!